Money, money, money

Why is there so little money present in my life? I recently decided to figure out where all my money goes because I have none by the time the month is over. I thought I spent a lot of money on nonsense and the truth is I do. I shop so much for clothes and food, I could feed and dress an entire army (of women...I don't think many men can fit in a size 2 haa). I did spend a whole whopping $2.99 for cupcakes for my brother for helping me finish my math final on time. I have been writing down all of my expenses, which has helped me stop shopping online because I'm too embarrassed to write down that I spent $200 on tank tops and shoes. I even paid some of my student loans because it makes my sheet look better if anyone happens to stumble upon it. I was doing so well and was really on track until I bought $345 bar tending classes. Is it worth it to spend money on something that will potentially boost my income? Is a little bit now worth it for all that I could make in the future? Maybe instead of sitting on Facebook in my free time, I could be somewhere making money, so I can buy $200 worth of shoes, which with my recent window shopping experience on Zappos is not that difficult. Tax refund time will be very welcomed by me this year, but I just read that it is important to not blow all of your refund. I am hoping to pay off some bills and pay some of my student loans, but we'll see how strong my self-control is. I just want to be responsible with my money, but it is just so hard when everything I want is worth something. Can we go back to the time where we traded chickens and beads for things?