Bruins

I need to start off this blog with the fact that I love Tuukka Rask. I don't care what any of you say and I understand that he has a long time girlfriend, but that man is going to be my boyfriend one day. Don't care. On that note I am not impressed by him tonight. I will give credit to the Bruins for holding it together (barely) through the entire game, but this is for the Cup. Let's be real. I will start this rant with the person who pisses me off the most. Daugavins. You need to pull yourself together man. Every time he is on the ice something terrible happens. He put HIMSELF OFFSIDES! wtf?! He can't pass or get the puck where it should be going. It is so frustrating that he is even on the team. No one likes you (as a player. I'm sure you are plenty nice, but seriously grow a pair and learn to play hockey). Jager, stop trying to shoot goals. You are too slow.  You do well when you set up the plays and pass the puck. Please stop trying to shoot. Those days are over. Paille, Peverley, Seguin, Bergeron, and on some occasions Chara, thank you. Dream team, thank you. ps. Chara stop fighting with people. You are a skyscraper, calm the F down or you are going to ruin someone's career. And for all you players who think standing 2 inches from Tuukka's face is going to help him stop the goals, you are sorely mistaken. Figure it out. I love you boys and wish you the best of luck, but do not let your shitty qualities get in the way of winning the Cup. This is for Boston, not just you. I think I am done venting now. Love you all so much. Good luck in Chicago....and by good luck, I mean you better win.

Here I am.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8XIYNhregAY

I figured I would start off this post with the song that is stuck in my head. It makes the post more relevant to something, as opposed to any other post I have written. I have been struggling this week with th emost popular question in any 20-whatever-year-old's life. What do I want to do with my life? I am not being modest. I really am not fantastic at anything. I am mediocre at many things, which is awesome, but my calling has not yet come into the picture. It is so frustrating. Why couldn't I just be born into a Russian gymnast family? I hate that I have to figure out this nonsense on my own. Self-discovery and all that emotional blahhhhhh. I have read blogs, newspaper articles, and listened to adults and they all tell me I am fine. I "still have time to figure it out". Awesome. I have time. I'm bored now!!! I want to find what I love now. Is that so much to ask? I wish I could go to sleep and wake up just know. That will never happen because you need to go out and experience life to understand which place you belong. It is hard to experience life when you are poor and the world is full of vicious people. I wish I could do what Thoreau did and live on a lake and write poems. However, I am not a poet, animals are dangerous, and murders are INSANE now. Fear outweighs the chance to grow and understand yourself nowadays, which is extremely sad. I wish I had more courage in many aspects of life. The spectrum of the things I fear is so large; it ranges from little tiny mice to plummeting towards the Earth from miles up in the air after being sucked up in a tornado. I am so scared of so many things that I am holding myself back from doing so many amazing things. This is a new day. I want to be brave. I want courage. I want to try new things and go new places to experience new things. This is the time. There is no better time than right now for me to get out there. I do not want to live with the regret of not trying things just because I am "scared". It is time to get going on my life.